~I have to be reminded~

Eccl. 1:15 That which is crooked cannot be made straight: and that which is wanting cannot be numbered.

Going from active ministry, into waiting on the Lord for his next leading/landing place, has been a ride. It's been tough, unsettling, exciting, discouraging, encouraging and all the above.

I struggle with trying to make this crooked journey into a more straighter path. As a wife it's difficult to see my husband pray, fast, study and plead with God, only for God to tell him to continue waiting. As a mother, it's difficult to hear my kids say, "Where are we going?", and I have to say, "I don't know, wherever God wants us next." Sometimes, I think maybe I could do this area different to make it a little straighter/easier for them and me, but the Lord brings me back to my senses and brings this verse to mind.

In human nature, I want to take the easiest/fastest/most painless road if possible. I have Google so I 'think' I have more options.*Ü* But in reality, the road I must take must be crooked, for without it I can't grow, learn, be tested, conquer, excel, fail, rise, lend, lead, etc. It's this journey that God has my family on that will best benefit us in the end! Although I don't like the difficult parts of our crooked path, I do love the handfuls on purpose he throws down for us along the way.

The end of the verse speaks to me as well, ".....and that which is wanting cannot be numbered." The Preacher in Ecclesiastes could not have been more dead on. Although my wants are many, I'm so glad that God doesn't give me everything that I want. I'm also glad that God gives me the things that He wants me to have, when He wants me to have them - because then, and only then, does He get all the praise.

Example: For about 2 weeks I've been "wanting" to get honey, but the finances... well, they're just not there. I haven't prayed about asking God for honey, but God knows my thoughts/desires/wants. I would go by the honey, ((sigh)) and move on. Today, a man shows up at our house with a package from their church and in it was a small bottle of honey!! There are lots of things that "I want" but "I don't want" if God doesn't want me to have them. By doing the things that God wants for me to do, he ends up smiling down and bringing the honey to me!! And that pleases Him and Me.

I'm trusting God for sure footing on my crooked path and for 'wanting' only what pleases Him!!